How could you do this to me?

Today, I asked you if you still wanted this. You shook your head from left to right while you were looking down. Then I asked “So, ayaw mo na?” Then you did the same gesture. I looked away, trying to sink everything in my system and then a tear fell down my eye. I didn’t say a word, not even a sound. Moments later, you held my face in your hands, apologized then hugged me tight. Tears came flowing down my eyes faster than I thought it would. I asked you “How could you do this to me? San ako nagkulang? What did I do to deserve this?” You didn’t say anything. You just held me close in your arms while I was crying. I pushed you away cause I was angry and confused. And then I thought to myself, I didn’t deserve this.

Alam mo yung pagod na?

Ako na yun.

I wanna rant and write about you, but I care for you too much for people to judge you because they will only hear my side of the story. So I’ll just shut up.

Didn’t get to greet you on your birthday.

But it’s fine, it’s been 3 years since you last said hi or even greeted me on any occasion anyway.

I still look at your profile every once in a while, just to check how you’re doing. Cause you never gave importance to the friendship / “complicated relationship” (as you would refer it to), anyway. I just wish some people gave in more effort in making people stay in their lives rather than, letting them just walk away like that. I won’t say I miss you, because I don’t. But I DO miss the friendship… We had last three years ago.

When things get tough

Sobrang sama lang talaga ng loob ko. “Walang iwanan” you say? Sayo pa mismo nanggaling yan and yet wala. Now, that I’m the one in the tough situation, ako yung naiwan sa ere.

Magaling, magaling. Pero sige, I understand. Desisyon mo naman yan eh. But you can’t blame me for being mad, either. Kasi umasa ako sa sinabi mo at sa totoo lang, nasaktan ako kasi naniwala ako. 

“When things get tough, your true friends will stay.”

More pictures from Boracay ♡

After stressful days and sleepless nights I had because of school, I finally had the perfect summer vacation! Just perfect enough to get me ready for my VERY STRESSFUL, third year in college. 

I hope everyone’s having their perfect summer as well!

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HOW I SPENT MY SUMMER VACATION:

• BORACAY FOR 5 DAYS
• Water sports
• Drank a lot of fruit shakes ♡
• Sunbathed
• Failed attempts on making sand castles
• Learned how to drive a speed boat
• Fell of the Jet ski and hit my head
• Met new people and partied with them
• ZERO SLEEP. Because sleep is for the weak. Lol, jk. 

Disappointed with myself

I need someone to make me feel better. I need someone to assure me that everything’s going to be fine. And that its okay to fail at least once in a while. It’s just so disappointing, knowing that you could have done better. If only I could go back in time and change things, I would. But what’s done is done. And as of now, to be honest, I don’t know what to do. The sad thing is that, I know I’m not the only one disappointed with the results. I’ve let them down and I guess, that’s what hurts me the most.

“What do you want? Stop calling.”

I really don’t know what else you want me to do. I’m just trying and yet you don’t acknowledge that. Now, this makes me wonder how much more of this bullshit I can take. Because in all honesty, I am on the verge of giving up.

“Mahal na mahal kita, at ang sakit sakit na.”

-Popoy (One More Chance)

In the first place,  bakit mo pa kasi kailangan saktan ang taong mahal mo? Kung masaya naman kayo, bakit kailangan niyo pa pahirapin yung sitwasyon?

So can someone please tell me?

Ano pa nga ba ang ginagawa ko dito?

Speechless

• Me: If we break up, will you miss me?
• Earl: Of course. You're one of the best things that happened to me.
• Me:

It was never my intention to hurt you.

And I’m sorry if my happiness gives you pain. I never meant this to happen.

You are the only exception ;)

That feeling you get when you see something from the past that you don’t really want to be reminded of anymore. The hurt, pain and anger all come rushing through your system and then you realize how much hatred and grudge you have for that person already. I mean, I know holding grudges are a bad thing… But I guess for you? I’ll make an exception ;) I will never forget what you did. And deep inside, I’m still hoping that you’ll get your karma.